Knock knock^^ who's there.. Peek-a-boo!

Dear Love, 


Over a month had passed since.. well, you know... eheee, so i'd like to tell you how it had been for me in this first month with you.

Life had always been all about me. Things i do, places i've been, decisions i made, all was of my own interest. And decisions it is that had brought me to you. I came from a family full of girls, so it had made me became a bit careful with you fellow gentlemen. Anyone that might seem interested, gave me the chills, as if it were an alarm for danger. Whenever they ring the bell, i completely shut out the door. The clincher of it is, if they were truly interested, why didn't they just kept ringing the bell until the door opens? 

Then there's you. 

You're a stranger. You don't know me, and i don't know you. All the times we were together, i NEVER seem to notice you at all, at all! I don't care what you do, i don't care where you sit, and i really don't give a damn about anything you talk about, or anything regarding you. Disappointed? hehe. Then came the day when you wrote down to me in that little message of yours that you wanted to 'get to know me'. At that time i thought it was funny. Perhaps it was another joke. But deep inside, there was a little tingle in my heart. I was really flattered.

Since then, i kept receiving texts from you from time to time. You seemed to care about me much. You cared about how you spoke to me, you cared about my well-being, and you cared about what happened in my life. At first, it was kind of distracting, because i can't connect to your feelings, i was afraid to hurt a special friend like you. And then I thought, perhaps I completely shut the door, but the bell kept ringing. Again, this little tingle in my heart went all frenzy, asking me to open the door for just a tinie-tiny little peek. And so i did. Peek-a-boo!

One day, you requested for a favor. Remember that little speech of yours we made for work? That was the time when i started to 'pop out my head from the door' for a closer look. What made me? Because you remembered all the details of the things i completely forgot. You remembered the exact order of my speech i did in class! Even I can't remember what i said. Well who does? At that time, that speech was like 3 weeks/4 weeks ago! But i was so amazed that YOU did~~ (by the way, i found that piece of paper, the one i wrote in class). Since then, wherever and whenever i went out drinking, you will come to me, even though u had your drinks earlier on with some other friends. You still came to me. I felt like i was special, like i'm the only girl in the world.

Then came the day you went home for a few days. I didn't hear from you at all. Well, maybe once.. through facebook. Those few days, i suddenly felt sad and lonely, but no one knew about it. Just me. (thank goodness i'm very optimistic and very cheerful... so lots of things helped to distract me.. haha). That’s when i knew that you ARE special. I realize another thing. All those times when i thought you rang the bell to my door... well, the twist to this is... actually, u didn't! U didn't ring the bell. When people ring the bell, they are forcing you to open the door. You will feel so annoyed. You will feel depressed, because you were forced to do things you aren't willing to do. 

But you....... once, just once. You rang once. On the other side of the door, when i heard the bell ringing, i took a peek from the window, just to make sure that the one ringing isn't a culprit that escaped from jail. hehe... or another annoying salesman trying to sell annoying stuff. I saw you wait in front of the door, patiently waiting until the door opens. The whole time, i saw you wait with a smile on your face. Perhaps at that time also, i probably saw you tense. But above all, when i see you, i saw your sincerity.. i saw your kindness.... So i opened the door.

Now that i'm with you, life has been such a blessing. In my inbox, there were days that you're the first person i came into contact with, and also the last. Whenever you're the one i started my day with, and the one i ended with, i was elated. I hate that i love you so, but i love that i love you so! Huhuu... so confusing. I hated it because i miss you when i can't see you. I hate it because i wanted to know every single detail that goes on with your life, but i can't because i hate to ask coz it made you feel interrogated or smothered. I understand that you need your space, so i never text you when you're working. I told you to have lots of fun when you went out with your friends because they made you happy. Truth is, i missed you a lot! 

But still, life must go on. haha..  I watched movies, i clean my room, i read books, i go out with friends, or just went to sleep. Or, given the mood to do so....Study study study and kept studying... Ehehe... (huh, it is so easy to keep you out of my head :-P hahahahahahaha.....)

I love it when you asked about my day coz i feel treasured. I loved it when you told me stories about your family coz it made me feel close to you. I love it when you gave me advises, coz it made me feel protected. I love it when you look at me and smile, because i can see how much you cared. I love your silly jokes coz it made my day. I love it when i went out eating with you, simply because you are fun to be with. 

I want to tell you everything because i know you'd be listening. I like to tell you things because i know you would always support me. Just so you know, when i tell you these stories about my hectic life, its not a problem that i asked for you to solve (men tend to see these things as 'problems they were needed to fix'). Its just the way girls like to bond.. by telling each other what they feel inside. For me, I just love to see your reaction. heheee...

I'm proud of you and I'm proud of who you are. Even if you live in the streets and begging for food, I’m still proud of you. Because you are who you are. I'm happy of all the little things you did and say. So i present to you these words to tell you how much you are appreciated (hoping that you read my blog.. hehehe). Have lots and lots of fun while you're at home for the weekend! I pray for your happiness, and success in life. 

Yours truly.... wanie...heheh..