The Great Wave of Emotion

Assalamualaikum 0_0


hmmm...i know this is not a diary... but i have to get it out of my chest somehow.... gosh.... these past few weeks, i had been awake around 3am... almost every day, and i cant continue sleeping since then. But last nite, it was the first time that i was able to sleep through the nite. Well, sleeping well means i should wake up full of energy and good mood right.. But not today....

I don't know what or where it went wrong, but things aren't really going my way today... I woke up in a really bad mood (and it wasnt because of my dream las nite, coz i dont even dream)... Then i woke up coz the phone vibrates and it was facebook (notification).. sheesshh... ingtkan sape.. rupenye facebook.... so i hate mr.facebook today.

Then solat subuh mcm biase... i felt tense so i thought bace yassin lah... This morning, solat subuh kat lua blik coz a fren of mine still sleeping in my room... So tgh2 bce yassin, housemate plak nak kua...... die x reti nk bwk kete manual, so i hve to move my car so that she can go out... So yassin x abes bce lagi....tension~

After that, sambung lagi.. well, sbb ati x tenang, ingt nak bce lagi dari mule.... istighfar 3x, al-fatihah 3x, selawat 11x... baru bace.... finally da abes... nak bce doa after yassin pulak.... tetibe housemate yg lagi sorg pulak tego... nk mintak sewe rumah... grrrrrr!#@%$!..... purse dlm kete.. kene la bkk lagi telekung, pakai tudung, kua umah, masok kete, bgi duet, bkk tudung, pakai telekung..... smbung lagiii...~~

tenang cket.. tp x lame,,

nk g fakulti, nak iron baju... pandai plak ek iron tu pileh mase die nk rosak... aaaa!! tension! x jadi pakai bju kurung... aaaa! tak sukenye! dh tue sbb iron gile2 tp baju still kusut lagi, dah buang mase byk kat situ, tgk jam rupenye ade 15min lagi meeting ngn supervisor nk start~~ aaa!!!!!!! rushing rushing!

sampai2 je fakulti..... hah! xde parking! budak2 fkk nie masing2 murah rezeki kot... kete besusun-susun... moto ntah celah mane ntah die nak letak da... tension~

nasib bek arini  meetg mule lambat.. so sempat dtg awal.. tp muke mmg x sempat nk pakai krim ape2 dah~~ muke pucat mcm tak mandi~~~ huuuuuuu~~~

tgh meeting, nk kene cek emel... bkk gmail ... masok gmail ................ i saw something, read it, and .............. dah cukop... takyah citer dah.... some things are better left unsaid... :-(

pegi libry.... nasib bek parking kat fab ade kosong.. masok facebook, ingtkan nek happy2 cket... cek status, member ade komen.... dah mmbr pulak komplen..die rase tpinggir lah ape lah....kite plak yg rase bsalah jdinye~~ tension~

and now pulak...... tgh taip entry nie, my sister pulak msg kt fcbook... tye pasal hal jadi saksi kat mahkamah.. kes parents.... cant take it anymoreeee..........~~~

i hate gmail... i hate google.... i hate facebook...... :'(

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i better cry myself out sepuas-puas ati... then i'll be fine.. kot~

lets just say that i'm currently experiencing a great great great crash of wave .. (note: i'm the wave)... crashing, and it hurts... i know its absurd... but well, the wave already crashed, so i cant do anything about it.

End of story~